Rough Day

Having a rough day is stinky.  I've had some pretty hefty back and stomach muscle problems off and on ever since I had Sophie.  Unfortunately, today was one of those days.  So I just wanted to share some thoughts.  I"m a fairly private person, so I don't share feelings very often, but today is one of those days.

Even though I've had some problems because of it, I am so grateful that Sophie joined our family.  I never thought I'd be able to love a little stranger as much as I do and I love her more every day.  She and Dave are my life.  And I'm so lucky to have them.  I was fortunate that I had a really easy and enjoyable pregnancy.  Unfortunately, the labor was not so.  You've all read my labor story already, but there are probably a few things I missed.  Like the fact that I only got to see Sophie for about 15 seconds while they were stitching me back up.  And then they took her away and I didn't see her again for hours, and no one would tell me why.  I still don't know why.  I wanted to see her so badly even though I had barely met her.  (although, I was shaking so bad at the time that I probably would have dropped her  :)  Apparently, that's a common thing after birth)  And like when Dave told me later that the doctor pulled him aside and said that our baby would probably die if I didn't agree to a C-Section.  And that I could as well.  He said it scared him to death.  And it made me so grateful for modern medicine.  Even though I hate doctors and hospitals and needles and blood, I am so grateful that it is there and that it saves lives.  Let's see.....I'm also grateful that she is sleeping through the night (yeah sleep!), that she hardly ever cries, and never does for no reason, and that Dave is so good with her, and that she loves me (at least, she smiles and laughs for me.  That had better be love!), and that I'm so grateful to have Dave.  I could list a million things about why I'm lucky to have him, and it wouldn't even cover half.  Thanks for everything you do Dave.